Theses Master's

This I Wonder - Spiritual Journey of a Wondering Heart

Zhang, Yiyi

“This I Wonder” is a staged monologue on struggles and transformations along my spiritual journey with aural landscapes of places I traveled to and stories from three of the narrators I interviewed. It went from my childhood memory to the beginning of my journey as a baptized Christian, to my trip in India which challenged me to appreciate people from other religions, to interviews I conducted last year and then to my manifesto of what I believe and wonder at that point in life. Audiences were also engaged in group discussions before and after the performance. The performance presented the sphere of subjectivity and intersubjectivity not only during oral history interviews, but also its on-going influence in shaping one’s interpretation after interviews. And through its vulnerability, transparency and inquiry, the performance opened a space for audiences to engage with questions around faith and identity struggles. To engage with this thesis, please go to

Keywords: religion, faith, doubt, Christianity, identity, struggle


More About This Work

Academic Units
Oral History Master of Arts
Thesis Advisors
Starecheski, Amy A.
M.A., Columbia University
Published Here
October 18, 2023